just got pinned in the kitchen by my mother.
we have company over, a woman who’s left her husband and is a friend of my dad’s- she’s come over to be consoled and get advice.
I hear the voices becoming a little more intense, pop my head out and ask if anyone wants anything to drink and then head to the kitchen to get something myself since they say no. my mom pounces in suddenly to thank me for being a good “hostess” and I ask her what’s going on.
the woman in the living room is leaving her husband, as I said. They have four children together. I tell her it’s terrible to hear that this guy is such a brute and has let his attitude and immaturity rip their family apart and my mother replies that “You may not want to hear this but, C (the woman) told her children that if R (my dad) ever treated her like their dad treated her, R (my dad) would dive off a cliff because of his actions. Because R (my dad ) is a man of God and M (woman’s ex husband) is not. That M (woman’s ex) was not raised with a moral compass like R (my dad) was and didn’t have God in his life”
So my mom is basically trying to pool together that all atheists are wife beating, out of control, savage monsters that can’t use common sense and mutual respect for human beings because they don’t have God to tell them to.
Last week or so I accidentally blurted out to her that I didn’t believe in God during one of our arguments and now she’s got a vendetta against me not having the Lord in my life.
I told her tonight I didn’t want to get into it because it was pointless and asked her to respect my feelings/beliefs and she kept going on how I didn’t want to because I didn’t want to hear the “truth”.
I feel so fucking clumsy to have let myself slip and give my parents another reason to not respect/trust me. Consequences suckkkk.
jesus christ I need to get out of this house soon ;A;